Gratitude

This morning I am thinking of all the things I am incredibly grateful for.

I am grateful for a warm bed, and beautiful home to live in. I am grateful for my family and friends, that honestly I feel like are a part of my family. I am thankful for a warm fire and hot cider. I am grateful for hugs, and love from the above. I am grateful for my speedy computer, and wireless internet. I am grateful for my little furry puppy Bernini, who is currently cuddling up with a Teddy bear twice his size. I am grateful I decided to do a low key celebration this year. I am grateful for the best two jobs in the whole wide world! What could be better that teaching music. . .

I am grateful for my faith in God, and Jesus Christ. I am grateful to have a beacon to hold me up and cling to when I feel like I don't have anything else to be grateful for.

Thanksgiving to all these things and the many I have not listed.

GYM GYM GYM

So, I went to the gym today, and rocked out to the glee soundtrack. 20 minutes, and some ab exercises and stretches. Good times. Now I just need to keep going like, every other day for the rest of my life, we'll see how it goes. On the diet front, I have been a little less than 100%, but I still feel good. Forward Ho!

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Time falls away, but these small hours still remain

Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know the hardest part is over?
Let it in, let your clarity define you
In the end we will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine until you feel it all around you
And I don't mind if it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by, it's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

All of my regret will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget the way I feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twists and turns of fate!

Time falls away, yeah but these small hours
And these small hours still remain, yeah
Ooh they still remain
These little wonders, oh these twists and turns of fate

Time falls away but these small hours
These little wonders still remain

Crying

I have been having one of those weeks where you feel like just crying and you can't quite tell why. It could be because you are totally wiped out. I could be because you don't feel good. Or you need a hug. It could be because you miss your friends, or you feel like you have lost a grip on who your real true friends are. It could be because you want someone to reach out to you. It could be because you have been putting all of your effort into something and you realize you can't do it alone. It could be because you realize you don't have to do everything on your own, but you're not sure how not to rely on others. It could be because you feel all of the people and relationships in your life are slipping away, and you are tired of things slipping. You just want something that will stay awhile. It could be because you are becoming more aware of your faults and weaknesses ( which can be quite down-heartening). Maybe it is money, or the burden of an overwhelming calling. Maybe it is heartbreak, or all the other things catching up with you. It could be because your body knows you needs a good cleansing cry. So why not just get on with it, eh?

Why not just cry, when you feel like it is all you have left to do??

Yesterday, I started recording my "get fit" chaos, right here on my blog. Now I am giving the official update. So I started trying to get fit at the beginning of the summer. I kinda failed, but I wasn't all together a failure. Now I have been more consistent at going to the gym since September, and I have been sorta trying to watch my caloric intake. So I am already lurching toward my goal.
now I have 45 lbs to meet my goal! Yay me!

Whipping myself into shape

Hello Friends.
So I have been thinking for the last 14 years or so that I should get in shape.

Some of you may know of my pre-mission slim down, which took some blood sweat and tears, but was well worth it.
Unfortunately, I ate to many Navajo taco's and desserts on my mission and I plumped up in time just to come home. I have tried on many occasions to "get in shape" again. Somehow my steam always kinda tuckers out, or I have an extended illness (see posts a year and a half ago). Earlier this year, my good friend Mindy introduced me to a wonderful eating program, that I feel goes hand in hand with the word of wisdom. I started it, and felt FANTASTIC! I have never felt so good, and had so much energy. I lost a good 15 lbs, and then lost momentum. Poo on me!

Well here I am, and now this is me saying I have made my choice just to throw myself into getting fit again. Working out and eating right. I have my goal right now set for my pre-mission weight, and that is a good 50lbs (sick I know). So goodbye 50lbs! Ciao! Goodbye fluffy belly and getting easily winded. I am so through with you.

I am taking it one day at a time.

Till we meet again blog. I am heading to the gym.

Holly

The choice.

I talked to someone the other day, and told them that I never wrote in my blog. I guess I am writing now because sometimes you just need to get things out.

Life is intricate, it is difficultly beautiful. I believe that you choose your destiny. Are we all bound by fate? Is our life swirling with out any say in which direction it goes? I don't believe so. I believe that there is a God, and while somethings may happen in ways we don't understand we still have a choice. That choice is in our actions. Do we become bitter and resentful or do we stand a little taller and face lives difficulties with grace. Do we hold on to past hurt and mourn our life's condition? No. Why would we want to suffer that way?? Why would we want to have a life without peace? We choose, I choose.

I chose one day that I wanted to be happy. I chose to have hope and faith in something greater than myself, but also in myself. I don't have patience for people who wallow, whine, and wimper about their life being "so hard". To that I say "buck up" and take some responsibility for your own destiny. You decide what you want your life to look like, and take action to make that happen.

I choose peace. I choose happiness. I choose to have good friends. I choose to take care of myself. I choose to have faith and hope. I choose to serve the Lord. I choose. I choose to look for the good in people. I choose to give people the benefit of the doubt. That is my choice.